Stupid little monkeys on a planet in the Milky Way Galaxy. That’s what we are in the grand scheme of things. We are grabbing on to our little treasures and thinking we can hold them. Addicted to the things, people and feelings, we are just dopamine chasing monkeys.
Yeah, I am one nihilistic monkey. You wonder where life will go, you try to control it, you think you can hold on to stuff with your little hands with opposable thumbs. And then it slips out of your hand. You try to find it, maybe the same thing or just similar and hold it tighter. And it slips out too. At some point it becomes a comforting idea that all this holding and slipping is meaningless. It’s nothing.. in the grand scheme of things.
I sit around and wonder, how many things that I yearned and craved for are with me. How they lost their charm once I had them. When I was growing up, I had a CRT Monitor for my computer. The luxury of a thin LCD Screen made me drool. Maybe it’s because of the macroeconomic situation that LCDs became quite cheap , but I do have thin LCD Screens. And they feel nothing special.
Sitting on this blue planet, blankly staring at stars, I wonder if it was the chase. Maybe it was the chase that I loved. Maybe if you and I were together, life wouldn’t be good. Maybe it’s a sweet dream that I hold onto. And I wake up every day hoping that dream will become a reality. But what happens when we hold too tight? It slips out. So maybe life is about yearning for LCDs or staring at the stars and wondering how life would be in the vast probabilities of you and me, together.